prone to wonder Lord i feel it, prone to leave the God i love. Here's my heart Lord take and seal it seal it for thy courts above.*

i am ready for spring break. although i've been pleasantly surprised by this semester. i guess spring is just always better and more bearable. :) but regardless, being home and just working would be nice.

i hate how i constantly feel torn about staying at school on the weekends or going home. no matter what i do i feel like i'm not pleasing someone. so i must remind myself of what & who is ultimately important. its just hard to long to be in two places at once. most people cant see the big picture [not that i can though, lol.] anyhoo. my birthdays next week. w00t. i'm somewhat scared of no longer being a teenager. does this mean i'm actually an adult? because i'm pretty sure i still like to be treated as the child/less responsible one in several situations. but this'll be the first birthday where i've been at school not home and honestly i'm not looking forward to it. not that my friends wont do the little things to make me feel special but still i imagine i'll be disappointed. plus, i have 3 tests on my birthday. tell me thats not depressing cause i definitely think it is. i just hope i dont cry. haha, how mature is that?

"your life shouldnt be measured by the number of your breaths but rather by the amount of breathtaking moments."

:) i want to remember that on my birthday.