next week @ this time i shall be home. hallelujah. i'm not sure what's up with my mood right now. but hopefully it'll get better tonight?
i'm finished with classes for the semester. :) every time i think of that it helps. and tomorrow's reading day which means Christmas Convo, mom & gma are coming, and open dorms. Should be a good time - hopefully. Friday I hafta go to my CSER & get the from & turn it in. I wanted to do that today but apparently it takes a week to answer 2 questions & give me a grade... i went to lifeway & michael's with nicole, em & jordan. (i lovee them) but i didnt really find anything. hopefully i'll finish a lot of my shoppin tomorrow. and friday night Raymond's coming :) to go to coffeehouse with me & saturday we're seein "7 brides for 7 brothers" and goin to Tiff's Christmas party. Then I'll head home w/ him & Sunday we'll do the Christmas tree deal & I'll come back here to do my last 3 finals & clean.
I feel weird right now. I'm not sure what exactly it is thats bothering me. I've decided not to go to campus church tonight for a number of reasons. i'm not going to go into all of them right now.. but i'll just say that guilt isnt a good reason to go to church. i should want to go to worship & grow & learn. but for some reason i was okay with not going tonight. that kinda scares me - does that mean that i'm not willing to grow? i could go on & on. i guess that just lead to me thinking about my church on sunday mornings. dont get me wrong i love it but i've definitely struggled with getting up & going joyfully lately. and the fact that i've missed church to work some. not tons or anything though. maybe its because growing up i just assumed i had to go to church unless i was like throwing up that now i feel guilty for not wanting to go every single opportunity i can. hmm.
i tried to find a devotional at lifeway earlier. something i can read a little in everyday. not a 365 day short thing because i've been doing those. i need to go when i can take lots of time to really just look through them & see what it is i'm searching for to do during my quiet times.
earlier i was thinking about next semester : new classes & books & roomates & stuff. i'm just anxious to see how its going to go. not like stressed anxious but curious...
okay i'm going to go read some Paradise Lost & find some food.
Wednesday, December 5, 2007
Monday, December 3, 2007
12 nights later...
so much for updating everyday. but in my defense i did have some issues w/ my password & username so i really did try. So much has been happening this past week. I'm at home now, working on my english essay & drinking hot chocolate & listening to Christmas music. sigh. but, i've gotta go back to school tonight && possibly until next wednesday when i shall be home for a month! hallelujah. :) i just want to be far from the drama @ school. not all of the people because there are many i will definitely miss, just the drama. anyhoo i want to actually write soon, but this was just to check & make sure its still workin correctly. i shall be back soon...
Wednesday, November 14, 2007
that's special
okay so i know it seems like i might actually consistently write in here on a daily basis... but we'll see. =) i put the link to here on my facebook so now pretty much anybody whom i'm friends with can read these thoughts. [lucky them/you!]
some days it seems like there's a theme to my day. something that keeps coming up, an idea or thought or random subject. Yesterday it was disabilities & handicaps. Sounds random but its really not. Disabilities & Disorders was the theme of my psyc class yesterday. (The class which i love by the way!) And Mrs.Donovan showed a video about a guy who was born blind and his limbs would never be straight. So therefore he's in a wheelchair & cant see. bummer huh? well hes an amazing musician. and hes in the marching band because his father is willing to work a really late shift so that he can spend the time with patrick required for that. What an amazing example of a father's sacrifice. And about a boy who gives God the credit for his life. Taking sign language has also made me become more aware of situations like this as well. and to just stop and consider how i would react. Mrs.Willmington was talking last night about how horrifying it is for a deaf person to begin going blind. I take so much for granted. seriously. i get angry when my contacts are being dumb, at least if my eyes arent all wide awake or are swollen from crying i still have my hearing to depend on. So after i left psyc yesterday and ate my turkey sub i was coming out of the bathroom @ North and i opened the door for a lady in a wheelchair. not that big of a deal or anything, I mean i've done it before & i'll do it again but just the fact that she seemed so grateful and as she began manueving into the fairly small bathroom this other lady totally walked like right in front of us both to get out of the bathroom and it totally ticked me off. Seriously people: when things arent easy for others, dont make it harder. please. Nobody said anything but the lady in the wheelchair definitely thanked me like 3 times for holding the door for her. So i came back to my dorm*room and watched I Am Sam. I had never seen it before but I'm glad I didn't watch it until yesterday. the timing just fit ya know. but the movie definitely shows the worlds reactions to a person who may be mentally retarded or even have some extreme disability. It totally sobered me and made me realize the reality of this world that we live in. the reality of my own discriminating self. Mrs.Donovan shared a quote with us after the video (she didn't remember where she originally heard it) ....
"WE ARE ALL ONE EVENT AWAY FROM A DISABILITY."
Matthew 11:5
*the blind recieve sight, the lame walk, those who have leprosy are cured, the deaf hear, the dead are raised, and the good news is preached to the poor."
The Message Remix. Luke 6
You're blessed when you've lost it all.
God's kingdom is there for the finding.
You're blessed when you're ravenously hungry.
Then you're ready for the the Messianic meal.
You're blessed when the tears flow freely.
Joy comes with the morning.
Patrick Henry Hughes-Inspirational Story
http://youtube.com/watch?v=-qTiYA1WiY8
some days it seems like there's a theme to my day. something that keeps coming up, an idea or thought or random subject. Yesterday it was disabilities & handicaps. Sounds random but its really not. Disabilities & Disorders was the theme of my psyc class yesterday. (The class which i love by the way!) And Mrs.Donovan showed a video about a guy who was born blind and his limbs would never be straight. So therefore he's in a wheelchair & cant see. bummer huh? well hes an amazing musician. and hes in the marching band because his father is willing to work a really late shift so that he can spend the time with patrick required for that. What an amazing example of a father's sacrifice. And about a boy who gives God the credit for his life. Taking sign language has also made me become more aware of situations like this as well. and to just stop and consider how i would react. Mrs.Willmington was talking last night about how horrifying it is for a deaf person to begin going blind. I take so much for granted. seriously. i get angry when my contacts are being dumb, at least if my eyes arent all wide awake or are swollen from crying i still have my hearing to depend on. So after i left psyc yesterday and ate my turkey sub i was coming out of the bathroom @ North and i opened the door for a lady in a wheelchair. not that big of a deal or anything, I mean i've done it before & i'll do it again but just the fact that she seemed so grateful and as she began manueving into the fairly small bathroom this other lady totally walked like right in front of us both to get out of the bathroom and it totally ticked me off. Seriously people: when things arent easy for others, dont make it harder. please. Nobody said anything but the lady in the wheelchair definitely thanked me like 3 times for holding the door for her. So i came back to my dorm*room and watched I Am Sam. I had never seen it before but I'm glad I didn't watch it until yesterday. the timing just fit ya know. but the movie definitely shows the worlds reactions to a person who may be mentally retarded or even have some extreme disability. It totally sobered me and made me realize the reality of this world that we live in. the reality of my own discriminating self. Mrs.Donovan shared a quote with us after the video (she didn't remember where she originally heard it) ....
"WE ARE ALL ONE EVENT AWAY FROM A DISABILITY."
Matthew 11:5
*the blind recieve sight, the lame walk, those who have leprosy are cured, the deaf hear, the dead are raised, and the good news is preached to the poor."
The Message Remix. Luke 6
You're blessed when you've lost it all.
God's kingdom is there for the finding.
You're blessed when you're ravenously hungry.
Then you're ready for the the Messianic meal.
You're blessed when the tears flow freely.
Joy comes with the morning.
Patrick Henry Hughes-Inspirational Story
http://youtube.com/watch?v=-qTiYA1WiY8
Monday, November 12, 2007
monday nights
Well, here we go... tonight is a monday night. Those have been interesting for me this semester. not good, not bad, just different. on mondays i'm most likely making the big transition from roanoke to lynchburg. some days i enjoy the drive, most i dont, because i would rather stay home & be lazy & not be a college student. yet, typically as soon as i get off 460 i'm fine with being back @ LU & all is well. i lug my laundry bag & backpack in, greet everyone, and either do homework, shower, or write new blogs until i have my nightly talk with ray, then quiet/prayer time & then go to sleep. =)
I just went through my usual routine of checking weather.com and deciding what to wear tomorrow. then i sat down to try to understand what exactly i need to do this week before thanksgiving break. i'm gonna list it here... why? cause i can.
-attend 7:40 facs class
-take Theo quiz, make sure i bring my Bible.
-walk to North for Psyc
-read english poetry then go.
-sign sign sign, and sit through that reallyyy long class tomorrow night.
-hallmeeting&prayergroups
-go to LCA's ELC wed.
-workout.
-read psyc, facs, & english.
-thanksgiving service.
-movie??
-go to facs,theo,&engl.
-pack!!
-CSER
-Go home Thursday night for 10 full days @ home :) :) :)
Break should be interesting. I honestly dont even feel that normal stress and pressure of "just trying to make it until break" though. It looks like I'm going to be spending most of my time @ The Childrens Place. or with Ray & my family. Not much ali-chill-alone time or random friend get together time but it's okay. There are pros & cons to working over 40hrs over break. And i think i can handle it bc i'll still have 4 glorious days of no work or school. only church & family time. =)
mmm... i havnt typed this much in awile so i think that shall do it for tonight.
I just went through my usual routine of checking weather.com and deciding what to wear tomorrow. then i sat down to try to understand what exactly i need to do this week before thanksgiving break. i'm gonna list it here... why? cause i can.
-attend 7:40 facs class
-take Theo quiz, make sure i bring my Bible.
-walk to North for Psyc
-read english poetry then go.
-sign sign sign, and sit through that reallyyy long class tomorrow night.
-hallmeeting&prayergroups
-go to LCA's ELC wed.
-workout.
-read psyc, facs, & english.
-thanksgiving service.
-movie??
-go to facs,theo,&engl.
-pack!!
-CSER
-Go home Thursday night for 10 full days @ home :) :) :)
Break should be interesting. I honestly dont even feel that normal stress and pressure of "just trying to make it until break" though. It looks like I'm going to be spending most of my time @ The Childrens Place. or with Ray & my family. Not much ali-chill-alone time or random friend get together time but it's okay. There are pros & cons to working over 40hrs over break. And i think i can handle it bc i'll still have 4 glorious days of no work or school. only church & family time. =)
mmm... i havnt typed this much in awile so i think that shall do it for tonight.
because
i used to have a xanga. and a livejournal. but, i don't feel inspired to resurrect them right now. and although i love reading them and listening to how dorky and easily excited i sound i actually feel like i've changed so much just since i've been in college that i want this to be separate from them. and i dont care if i spell things wrong or dont use the correct punc..!?!. okay. alright well this was just a pointless post to understand how this whole posting thing works. :)
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